Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Denial

Last Sunday at church, I saw 3 different newborns. They were so tiny, so perfect. My heart melted. Then, all of a sudden I thought, OMG that's gonna be us before we know it. Holding a baby. I think this kid is going to come sooner than I want. I know he's coming. 5 weeks from today. There's a small part of me that's really getting excited about it. But, most of the time, I'm still trying to admit that I am, in fact, pregnant. I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the fact that we'll be a family of 6 soon. This pregnancy was just such a huge surprise that it's taken me this long to adjust and realize all of the changes ahead for our family. I think Kevin has been in denial, too, from his blog post last week. He has his own stuff going on, and didn't even mention it.
Last week, we found out that we have to have the baby in a different hospital. I've been in touch with this hospital, and, let's just say, I'm hoping to not have to stay there for the full time allotted after a c-section. The lady spent 10 minutes telling me how great this hospital is and that it is considered a small town hospital. Um...that's not really what I want to hear. She also said that the hospital was built in 1972 and was the first hospital in the state to have dads stay in the room with the mom and baby. Because of this, the rooms are quite small. In fact, after boasting about letting dads stay, she quickly said that they usually don't b/c of the small space. Great...And, because of the way the rooms are laid out, the showers are located down the hall. NOT in the hospital room. Are you kidding me? Is that even legal? I am suddenly dreading this delivery more and more with every thought. Never in a million years did I think that by having a baby in California, that I'd be stepping back in time...I am soooo not thrilled about this.
Just give me the percocept that I've been looking forward to getting and let me recover at home.

2 comments:

Sarah Shah Portraits said...

Hope the c/s is easy peasy and your recovery goes well. We only ended up staying 2 days after mine and that was long enough. I can't imagine having to go down the hall for the shower.

Gerri said...

In Abilene, you have to go down the hall for a shower and you share the sink and toilet with the person in the next room--like a Jack and Jill bathroom.
So sorry this is turning out this way. I'll be there to take care of you (or at least the rest of your family)!
Did she say whether there is a nursery for the babies. Remember with Presley how much you needed to sleep and there wasn't one, but the nurse took her to the nurses' station so you and Kevin could rest.